First I must thank everyone for all your prayers. God certainly heard the "cries of His people" as you have stood so faithfully in intercession for me.
I went into surgery on May 9th. There were still some concerns in the surgeon's mind about possible complications and the spread of cancer throughout my intestines. Even though there were no indications of this, he said he would not know until he got inside. If it had spread, he would not be able to reconnect my bowels.
But God had given me such peace.
All year I have been studying a different name of God each week. How interesting that the very week before my surgery I would study Yaweh Rophe - The Lord Who Heals!!! Just a few days before my surgery my reading for the day included the verse 2 Kings 20:5 - "This is what the LORD, the God of you father David, says: I have heard your prayers and seen your tears; I will heal you." Even as I write this I am overwhelmed by God's presence and His personal assurance to heal me. What a mighty God we serve!
The preparation for surgery began 2 days before as I had to do a very significant bowel cleanse. I will spare the details but needless to say the night before the surgery was sleepless. I was up and down all night but was encouraged by the thought that in just a few hours I would be asleep for hours! In my sleeplessness I prayed for the surgeon. I prayed for a good night's sleep for him!
God gave me assurance that he was hearing me once again as the first thing the surgeon said to me when he walked in was that he had had 10 ours of sleep that night! That was the last thing I remember until I saw him when I awoke. The next thing I remember was the surgeon standing by my bed telling me that the surgery was a complete SUCCESS and that NONE of the possible complications that we had discussed were there! He was able to reconnect my bowels and there was no visible evidence of cancer anywhere. And believe me he went looking.
He gave Brad a detailed description. He said he went on a cancer search. He actually stretched out my intestines and looked them over then put them back in place. He took biopsies all during surgery and all came back negative. He also took biopsies that would be sent for further, more accurate, evaluation - 14 Lymph nodes, tissue coming right up to the tumor site as well as in other locations throughout my bowels and abdominal cavity. The final biopsy report showed everything NEGATIVE!!!!!!!!
What a mighty God we serve!!!!
My estimated stay in the hospital was 10 days - I was released in 6 and was able to attend my girls dance recital just 8 days after surgery!
Recovery has seemed long and slow at times. But when I get impatient or discouraged I just remind myself of where I have been and how far I have come and that I am on this side of it all!!!
I am focusing right now on building my body back up including my immune system, as well as my liver, kidneys and bladder which have all been greatly stressed through the onslaught of chemicals put in my body- from chemo, radiation, to anesthesia, pain medication, catheters etc.
I continued a pretty intense nutritional protocol through it all which I know helped me tremendously.
My first speaking event was just 3 weeks after surgery at the Richmond Virginia Home school Convention. I struggled with discouragement as I tried to prepare to speak. Would anyone still want to listen to me after all I had gone through? Would stressing the importance of eating healthy diminish my faith in the supernatural healing that God had done in my life? As I sought the Lord for His wisdom and peace He so graciously answered my prayers. He spoke so clearly to my spirit that His hand was in it all. He said to me "Don't you see that it was I who led you to this way of eating 17 years ago" Then I was reminded of one of the doctor's comments to me as I questioned him on how this could happen to me. He speculated to me that, probably ,had I not changed the way I was eating so many years before, that I would have been in this place 10 years sooner. Wow, I remembered how God had healed me then, as I had struggled with bowel issues for most of my life until changing to REAL BREAD. God then reminded me that it was Him that had shown me, so very lovingly, the spiritual roots of my physical infirmity. He also reminded me that it was Him that had lead me every step of the way through my pathway of healing. From the doctors, nutritionists, surgeons and my precious church familiy of prayer warriors who never gave up - He was in it all. So to stress one aspect was not to diminish Him in any way but reveal His concern in all areas of our life. I was led to share that day all that God had done in my life both spiritually and physically. It was an incredible experience especially since over 200 people came to my workshop to hear me speak!!!! How blessed and humbled by God I was that day and everyday.
It has been 3 months now since surgery and I am almost back to full speed. I do tire easily and so I am trying to pace myself. When I have a full day it seems I have to have a rest day.
This week I am studying the name of God - Yaweh Roi - The Lord is my Shepherd.
"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for YOU ARE WITH ME"!! Psalm 23:4 (empahsis mine!)
I will teaching my first cooking class in almost a year on Saturday August 18th. Hope to see some of you there!!!
Thank you and God Bless you all.
Sincerely, Sue Becker
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Good News!!
Sue went in to surgery yesterday (5/9/07) to remove the tumor. After several hours, Brad got a great report from the doctor. There did NOT appear to be any signs of cancer anywhere else, but the Dr. took several samples for biopsy in the coming days. There was some collateral damage to the small intestine from the radiation treatments; otherwise, everything looked good. Sue will be in the hospital about a week as her reconnected colon heals and they make sure everything "works"!
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Praising God for a Good Report
After much consultation I was advised to seek out a different surgeon. There were some concerns that there may be complications in my surgery and the resection of the tumor may require a more specialized surgeon.
My appointment with the new surgeon however left us shocked to say the least. After reviewing my CT scan done in the hospital he was seriously concerned that the tumor had invaded my bladder. He began to discuss the possibility of not even being able to remove the tumor or having to take my bladder as well. I could not believe what I was hearing. He ordered an MRI, which I had done on April 13th. My MRI results were to be reviewed by both the board of surgeons and a team of radiologists at Emory University.
On Sunday April 15th, I desperately needed a touch from God. During our worship service I felt the desire to just go kneel at the altar. I just wanted to worship at the feet of Jesus. I felt like the woman needing to press through the crowd and touch the hem of Jesus' garment. I resisted going for a few minutes as there was no call to come to the altar so I would be very noticed. But God continued to nudge me forward. As I went I grabbed the hand of a sister in the Lord who desperately needs a healing touch from the Lord as well.
As we knelt at the altar I boldly cried out to the Lord and presented my very specific request. I needed a miracle. The next thing I knew people were around us praying. The pastor came over and prayed. It was powerful!!! When I finally got up to return to my seat I noticed that the whole altar was covered with people who had come forward to seek God's touch as well. Our pastor was in tears as he felt the sweet move of the Spirit
I came home and began watching the Visual Bible - A dramatization of the book of Matthew. It is awesome. As the leper came to Jesus and said "if you are willing you can heal me". The actor portraying Jesus looked right into the face of the leper and said "I am willing" It was as if the Lord was looking right at me. "I am willing"
God continued to encourage me through out the week and I have gotten stronger and stronger since that day. My strength is improving and I almost feel normal again (Brad says I was never normal - Ha, Ha)
On Monday, April 23, the surgeon finally called me with their conclusions.
There is NO bladder involvement and only a slight chance of bone involvement which could be easily taken care of with surgery. They saw no other complications and my surgery date is set for Wednesday, May 9th. Praise God!!!!!!!!!!!
I continue to pray that I will soon be fully recovered as I am ready to get on with all the Lord has in store for me to do.
Thank you all for your continued prayers and support. I love you all.
To God be the Glory!!!
Sincerely, Sue Becker
My appointment with the new surgeon however left us shocked to say the least. After reviewing my CT scan done in the hospital he was seriously concerned that the tumor had invaded my bladder. He began to discuss the possibility of not even being able to remove the tumor or having to take my bladder as well. I could not believe what I was hearing. He ordered an MRI, which I had done on April 13th. My MRI results were to be reviewed by both the board of surgeons and a team of radiologists at Emory University.
On Sunday April 15th, I desperately needed a touch from God. During our worship service I felt the desire to just go kneel at the altar. I just wanted to worship at the feet of Jesus. I felt like the woman needing to press through the crowd and touch the hem of Jesus' garment. I resisted going for a few minutes as there was no call to come to the altar so I would be very noticed. But God continued to nudge me forward. As I went I grabbed the hand of a sister in the Lord who desperately needs a healing touch from the Lord as well.
As we knelt at the altar I boldly cried out to the Lord and presented my very specific request. I needed a miracle. The next thing I knew people were around us praying. The pastor came over and prayed. It was powerful!!! When I finally got up to return to my seat I noticed that the whole altar was covered with people who had come forward to seek God's touch as well. Our pastor was in tears as he felt the sweet move of the Spirit
I came home and began watching the Visual Bible - A dramatization of the book of Matthew. It is awesome. As the leper came to Jesus and said "if you are willing you can heal me". The actor portraying Jesus looked right into the face of the leper and said "I am willing" It was as if the Lord was looking right at me. "I am willing"
God continued to encourage me through out the week and I have gotten stronger and stronger since that day. My strength is improving and I almost feel normal again (Brad says I was never normal - Ha, Ha)
On Monday, April 23, the surgeon finally called me with their conclusions.
There is NO bladder involvement and only a slight chance of bone involvement which could be easily taken care of with surgery. They saw no other complications and my surgery date is set for Wednesday, May 9th. Praise God!!!!!!!!!!!
I continue to pray that I will soon be fully recovered as I am ready to get on with all the Lord has in store for me to do.
Thank you all for your continued prayers and support. I love you all.
To God be the Glory!!!
Sincerely, Sue Becker
Friday, April 6, 2007
The Lord Is Good - Update by Sue April 6, 2007
I am sorry that it has been so long since I posted an update. I actually spent about 3 hours one afternoon a few weeks ago writing an update. I had poured my heart into sharing everything the Lord has been doing in my life, both physically and spiritually, through this trial. When I posted it I was sent an error message and the whole thing was lost in cyber space. Since then I have been so weak I have not felt like writing anything. So today I will at least try to give you the basics of what's going on and how I am doing.
Since my last update, after much prayer and counsel I decided to go through with radiation and chemotherapy treatment. I sought the Lord diligently on this matter and told Him every step of the way that I did not want to do this. However, every medical professional involved in my treatment advised me that this was my best treatment option, even those very alternatively minded. The most critical part of my recovery was to get this tumor out of my body and the most effective tumor shrinking method at this time seems to be chemo/radiation. I continued with the herbal tea and with the help of two alternative care doctors, began a nutritional protocol to help the chemo/radiation be more effective as well as help with some of the negative side effects of these very radical treatments. Had the Lord not absolutely confirmed to me that this was the path that He designed for my healing I could not have gone through with it.
I began treatment on Feb 21. The protocol was 5 weeks and 3 day of both chemo and radiation. The chemotherapy was a low oral dose that I did at home. I prayed every day for God's protection and that He would direct both these agent to the tumor itself. I progressed very well until about 3 weeks into it when the nausea and fatigue were overwhelming. I did not however experience any of the other negative side effects, which I attribute to the nutritional regime that I was on. My blood counts were excellent as well as my liver function through out the treatment, which I praise God for. I had begun to pray that God would reveal to me when my body had had enough. I began to have some pretty extreme allergic type reactions at which time the chemotherapy was stopped. I continued the radiation for another week.
I then began to experience some severe abdominal pain. I was hospitalized for testing. A CAT scan revealed that fluid was collecting in my abdominal cavity and that my small bowel had been damaged by radiation. Radiation was terminated and I am now in the rest and recovery mode.
However, the two doctors involved in my care in the hospital interpreted the results of the CAT scan totally differently. At 6:45 AM on Tuesday March 27th, I was told that my cancer had spread and that surgery was now out of the question. No other possible explanation was given. The oncologist would be by later and they would then discuss the next step. When the doctor left the room Brad and I were in a state of shock. But I knew that I had to hear from God. We prayed and Brad went on to work. Alone in my room, I began to sing and praise the Lord. I thought of the verses about the Angel of the Lord encamping around those who fear Him and how the Lord will give His angels charge over you. I immediately sensed the presence of these "ministering spirits". I asked the nurse to bring me a Bible. For the next few hours, waiting on the second doctor to arrive, I prayed and sought the Lord through His word.
My sister in law called on my cell phone to share a scripture that the Lord had put on her heart for me that day. She had no idea I was in the hospital! The scripture was the all too familiar James 1:2-4
"Consider it pure joy, my brethren, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."
WOW! I do want to be "mature and complete" and "not lacking anything"; so if this is what it was going to take then I would be joyful.
God ministered to me through His word both through Psalm 91 and Isaiah 46. God's peace that passes all understanding certainly began to guard my heart and my mind (Philippians 4:6-7). This is a major miracle for me because I have always been a worrier and have battled fear often. I know now that God used this incident to deliver me from this powerful stronghold in my life.
When the second doctor came by (six hours later) she did not feel that the cancer had spread but that everything going on was a result of radiation. Radiation was terminated and a PET scan was ordered. PET scans show cancer anywhere in your body.
The PET scan was done on Friday March 30. The scan showed that the tumor had significantly shrunk, another soft tissue mass that had shown up on the original scan was almost completely gone and there was no evidence of cancer anywhere else in my body!!!!!
We are praising God for this report.
I am now in the rest and recovery mode awaiting surgery. I should be having surgery in about 4 weeks and my prayer is to remove the remains of the tumor and hook my bowels back up all in the same surgery. I am looking forward to getting this all behind me and moving on with my life.
This has been a long hard road to travel but I do not regret taking the journey. God has done so many things in my life to prepare me for His future plans for my life. I know many of you as well as I have questioned how this could happen to me. Perhaps you have even questioned the validity of the message I teach. But God has assured me that our message is true and that I am to share it even more boldly than before. As I have been in and out of doctors offices and read the risk factors of colorectal cancer, I had none of them. In fact my colonoscopy showed a very healthy colon: no polyps, no diverticuli just a very large tumor in my rectum. No one in my family has a history of colorectal cancer. So how could this happen to me? The doctors tell me it takes a long time for a tumor to reach this size and had I not been eating the way I have all these years, I would have probably been here 10 years ago.
God, however, has shown me that there are both physical as well as spiritual causes for disease. I first thought this was just an attack of the enemy. And while I do believe he has attacked my life and testimony I have come to realize that I am the one who opened the door for him to attack me. I had over the years opened the door for the enemy to gain a stronghold in my life through unforgiveness. This of course led to bitterness, anger and resentment. This needs to be another sermon for another time but God in His mercy has set me free and by His stripes I am healed. I am learning to love others in a way I never thought possible.
Please continue to keep us in your prayers as I seek a new surgeon and prepare for surgery. I am very weak right now and in a good deal of pain due to the bowel damage. I am asking God for a healing and am hoping that this will resolve as I recover more and more from the radiation.
Sincerely, Sue Becker
Since my last update, after much prayer and counsel I decided to go through with radiation and chemotherapy treatment. I sought the Lord diligently on this matter and told Him every step of the way that I did not want to do this. However, every medical professional involved in my treatment advised me that this was my best treatment option, even those very alternatively minded. The most critical part of my recovery was to get this tumor out of my body and the most effective tumor shrinking method at this time seems to be chemo/radiation. I continued with the herbal tea and with the help of two alternative care doctors, began a nutritional protocol to help the chemo/radiation be more effective as well as help with some of the negative side effects of these very radical treatments. Had the Lord not absolutely confirmed to me that this was the path that He designed for my healing I could not have gone through with it.
I began treatment on Feb 21. The protocol was 5 weeks and 3 day of both chemo and radiation. The chemotherapy was a low oral dose that I did at home. I prayed every day for God's protection and that He would direct both these agent to the tumor itself. I progressed very well until about 3 weeks into it when the nausea and fatigue were overwhelming. I did not however experience any of the other negative side effects, which I attribute to the nutritional regime that I was on. My blood counts were excellent as well as my liver function through out the treatment, which I praise God for. I had begun to pray that God would reveal to me when my body had had enough. I began to have some pretty extreme allergic type reactions at which time the chemotherapy was stopped. I continued the radiation for another week.
I then began to experience some severe abdominal pain. I was hospitalized for testing. A CAT scan revealed that fluid was collecting in my abdominal cavity and that my small bowel had been damaged by radiation. Radiation was terminated and I am now in the rest and recovery mode.
However, the two doctors involved in my care in the hospital interpreted the results of the CAT scan totally differently. At 6:45 AM on Tuesday March 27th, I was told that my cancer had spread and that surgery was now out of the question. No other possible explanation was given. The oncologist would be by later and they would then discuss the next step. When the doctor left the room Brad and I were in a state of shock. But I knew that I had to hear from God. We prayed and Brad went on to work. Alone in my room, I began to sing and praise the Lord. I thought of the verses about the Angel of the Lord encamping around those who fear Him and how the Lord will give His angels charge over you. I immediately sensed the presence of these "ministering spirits". I asked the nurse to bring me a Bible. For the next few hours, waiting on the second doctor to arrive, I prayed and sought the Lord through His word.
My sister in law called on my cell phone to share a scripture that the Lord had put on her heart for me that day. She had no idea I was in the hospital! The scripture was the all too familiar James 1:2-4
"Consider it pure joy, my brethren, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."
WOW! I do want to be "mature and complete" and "not lacking anything"; so if this is what it was going to take then I would be joyful.
God ministered to me through His word both through Psalm 91 and Isaiah 46. God's peace that passes all understanding certainly began to guard my heart and my mind (Philippians 4:6-7). This is a major miracle for me because I have always been a worrier and have battled fear often. I know now that God used this incident to deliver me from this powerful stronghold in my life.
When the second doctor came by (six hours later) she did not feel that the cancer had spread but that everything going on was a result of radiation. Radiation was terminated and a PET scan was ordered. PET scans show cancer anywhere in your body.
The PET scan was done on Friday March 30. The scan showed that the tumor had significantly shrunk, another soft tissue mass that had shown up on the original scan was almost completely gone and there was no evidence of cancer anywhere else in my body!!!!!
We are praising God for this report.
I am now in the rest and recovery mode awaiting surgery. I should be having surgery in about 4 weeks and my prayer is to remove the remains of the tumor and hook my bowels back up all in the same surgery. I am looking forward to getting this all behind me and moving on with my life.
This has been a long hard road to travel but I do not regret taking the journey. God has done so many things in my life to prepare me for His future plans for my life. I know many of you as well as I have questioned how this could happen to me. Perhaps you have even questioned the validity of the message I teach. But God has assured me that our message is true and that I am to share it even more boldly than before. As I have been in and out of doctors offices and read the risk factors of colorectal cancer, I had none of them. In fact my colonoscopy showed a very healthy colon: no polyps, no diverticuli just a very large tumor in my rectum. No one in my family has a history of colorectal cancer. So how could this happen to me? The doctors tell me it takes a long time for a tumor to reach this size and had I not been eating the way I have all these years, I would have probably been here 10 years ago.
God, however, has shown me that there are both physical as well as spiritual causes for disease. I first thought this was just an attack of the enemy. And while I do believe he has attacked my life and testimony I have come to realize that I am the one who opened the door for him to attack me. I had over the years opened the door for the enemy to gain a stronghold in my life through unforgiveness. This of course led to bitterness, anger and resentment. This needs to be another sermon for another time but God in His mercy has set me free and by His stripes I am healed. I am learning to love others in a way I never thought possible.
Please continue to keep us in your prayers as I seek a new surgeon and prepare for surgery. I am very weak right now and in a good deal of pain due to the bowel damage. I am asking God for a healing and am hoping that this will resolve as I recover more and more from the radiation.
Sincerely, Sue Becker
Friday, January 5, 2007
Hello Everyone!
It is great to be able to give you this update personally.
I first need to thank all of you from the bottom of my heart for all the cards, gifts, flowers, calls and most importantly the prayers. I have never felt so loved!!! They each seemed to come at just the right time. Words to speak to my heart when I needed to hear them the most, flowers to brighten my day when it seemed a little gloomy, calls to cheer me on in the battle, and prayers-- always needed!!!! Thank you just does not seem adequate.
I am recovering very well from the surgery and and all that I went through dealing with the extensive infection. It has seemed slow at times and I get impatient to feel like "my old self" again. I got the flu right before Christmas and that really seemed to set things back as it took me 10 days just to get over the fever and sore throat.
I do struggle with some pain and nausea that comes and goes, so I seem to have "good days" and "bad days" but only from a physical stand point. All my days have been good spiritually, as the Lord has been so very close to me and spoken to me in many ways. It will all one day soon be part of the bigger testimony of His love that He is working in me that I know He will want me to share.
I am in a holding pattern at the moment waiting to have some final diagnostic tests. In the mean time I have chosen to use an herbal formula as treatment, as well as several other supplements. After investigating many alternative treatments I felt such peace about this program. The herbal formula was specifically designed to treat cancer.
After much prayer, I feel such a sense of God's healing power and know that He is with me in this battle. I have prayed that this tumor would be cursed just as Jesus cursed the fig tree, that was all lush with leaves but was producing no fruit (much like the tumor growing in me) Matt. 21: 18-22. He cursed the fig tree and it shriveled up at once and died. The next day the disciples marveled that the fig tree was dead and ask "How is it the the fig tree has withered away all at once?"
The doctors tell me they have to shrink the tumor (i.e. radiation/chemo) before they can remove it. When I have the final scan to look at the tumor again to determine treatment it is my prayer that they will say "How is it that this tumor has shriveled away all at once?"!!!!!!!!!
To God be the glory!!!!!!!!
Sue Becker
I first need to thank all of you from the bottom of my heart for all the cards, gifts, flowers, calls and most importantly the prayers. I have never felt so loved!!! They each seemed to come at just the right time. Words to speak to my heart when I needed to hear them the most, flowers to brighten my day when it seemed a little gloomy, calls to cheer me on in the battle, and prayers-- always needed!!!! Thank you just does not seem adequate.
I am recovering very well from the surgery and and all that I went through dealing with the extensive infection. It has seemed slow at times and I get impatient to feel like "my old self" again. I got the flu right before Christmas and that really seemed to set things back as it took me 10 days just to get over the fever and sore throat.
I do struggle with some pain and nausea that comes and goes, so I seem to have "good days" and "bad days" but only from a physical stand point. All my days have been good spiritually, as the Lord has been so very close to me and spoken to me in many ways. It will all one day soon be part of the bigger testimony of His love that He is working in me that I know He will want me to share.
I am in a holding pattern at the moment waiting to have some final diagnostic tests. In the mean time I have chosen to use an herbal formula as treatment, as well as several other supplements. After investigating many alternative treatments I felt such peace about this program. The herbal formula was specifically designed to treat cancer.
After much prayer, I feel such a sense of God's healing power and know that He is with me in this battle. I have prayed that this tumor would be cursed just as Jesus cursed the fig tree, that was all lush with leaves but was producing no fruit (much like the tumor growing in me) Matt. 21: 18-22. He cursed the fig tree and it shriveled up at once and died. The next day the disciples marveled that the fig tree was dead and ask "How is it the the fig tree has withered away all at once?"
The doctors tell me they have to shrink the tumor (i.e. radiation/chemo) before they can remove it. When I have the final scan to look at the tumor again to determine treatment it is my prayer that they will say "How is it that this tumor has shriveled away all at once?"!!!!!!!!!
To God be the glory!!!!!!!!
Sue Becker
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